I RELEASED IT...

I remember when I was really young, my aunt was very upset because someone did her WRONG... and my Grandmother told her to RELEASE IT. At the time I didn't understand what that meant. Then one day many years later, I went to my Grandmother for counsel because someone did me WRONG... she said the same thing to me... RELEASE IT. At that point I understood what it meant intellectually, but it was really hard for me to RELEASE IT. Forgiveness of others is truly the best gift you can give to YOURSELF. Forgiveness is not about the other person, its about you not holding onto your anger,or pain,or the unforgivable WRONG. Holding on to these things hold you back. I know this in my heart now, not just in my head. I have gifted forgiveness to some folks and for some folks I have had to forgive them more than once. Forgiveness is never easy, but I learned a long time ago that its harder to carry the weight of anger than it is to RELEASE IT.

Yes, WonderWoman has been in total reflection mode.

Well just a moment ago I RELEASED IT. I was on the phone with a person that did me WRONG and I lost a lot of respect for her because she lacked of integrity and backbone. Lying about yourself is one thing, but lying about me is something totally different. I befriended her which doesn't come easy for Wonder Woman. My SistaFromAnothaMotha, my Momma, and a few others thought I was insane for befriending her, because of the circumstances of our relationship. But the truth is that I befriended her... due of the circumstances. Hell I wasn't seeking her friendship and for many years our paths hardly ever crossed. I was doing well not to have to speak to her too often. Life changes and due to some of our commonalities(that I wouldn't chose but they are what they are), our paths joined at one point. The friendship began and ended after about a year...

Long story short I was hurt by her actions, but I was even more angry at myself for trusting her in the first place. Integrity in a friendship is very important to me, so there's no going back on that one. But the reality is that I have been holding on to this for over a year. Today, I RELEASED IT... because holding on to the negative changed my mood when I would see her (I hadn't seen her much after this happened, but in the near future we will be seeing a lot of each other). I am a GROWN ASS WOMAN so dinging her in the mouth is not a good look. So in true GROWN ASS WOMAN fashion, I would exchange hellos and keep it moving, but then I would feel the anger and be back in that moment every time... that doesn't suit me. I am DONE with that moment in the past, but when I would see her my anger brought me back there. I have moved on, and I am truly too blessed to be stressed...

I have elevated to another level in my life's journey over the last year, and holding on to that anger, just doesn't fit with me given where I am and where I am heading.

Will we be FRIENDS... NO...
Will I be at PEACE with the past... YES...

I don't always get a chance to remember the moment that I RELEASE IT... I am glad I was able to blog about it... it will give me something to look back on in the future.

Much Luv and Gratitude,
WonderWoman