From a Whisper to a Gut Punch...

Some of my closest friends and family know that when I call them... take a deep breath and say... "guess what happened to me"... they know that I am about to share some crazy recollection of an event that could only happen to... me.

Well usually my "guess whats" are situations that are the reminders or lessons that come to me thru a gut punch, because I was ignoring or avoiding the whisper. Saturday was one of those days, I was involved in another hit and run car accident. It was not a serious accident, but a very symbolic incident. The jerk side swiped me, and raced away. At first I started to follow him, but the whisper said just get the license plate, so I did. I was angry for a little while, and then I did what I knew I needed to do... I got quiet and listened. I have been avoiding that quiet ME time. But after the car incident, I knew I needed to pause and get alone for a while. After a good soul cry (I needed that more than I thought). I have been emotionally exhausted, physically ill, and mentally overwhelmed for a while now. So on Saturday, after the gut punch... I listed my worries and that moved me to surrender some things. Surrendering allowed me the space to shift from what I don't want... to WHAT I DO WANT!

Saturday started off with some affirming and fulfilling moments. Working on Saturday has been the source of some of my unbalanced life and also a source of great fulfillment. I don't have the words yet to describe the feeling... but its amazing to do work that I know my journey, that was filled with trials, tribulations, and triumphs, prepared me to do. I shared some insight with a young mother while she waited to pick up her beautiful daughter. As we were talking I realized, that if I had not been through it before I wouldn't not have had the insight to share. Some days I am able to give to others what I probably needed when I was in their similar situation. As it has said before... the gut punch was my reminder that God ain't done with me yet.

I was skimming thru this book, Nothing's Impossible: Leadership Lessons from inside and outside the classroom by Lorriane Monroe. I found a new quote to add to my collection this week from Ms. Monroe, "As you grow, so does your work, and so will those whose lives you touch."

Some things I am grateful for:
-My faith and trust in God's love for me
-My Grandma T for being an amazing representative of God's love. She is truly my shero!
-Music. Two songs that really spoke to my situation these days are by Yolanda Adams- Anything and Only if God Says Yes.
-Corn Dogs. I had a corn dog yesterday and it reminded me of some special moments that I have shared with my youngest son. He was obsessed with corn dogs at one point and we would go on missions to find the best corn dog in the frozen food section... lol.
-Creative combinations for cheesecake... I just love dessert! I had a slice of cookies and cream cheesecake... yummy!
-My new highlighter w/ post-it tabs. Oprah put me onto this new product and I am using it for the new Oprah Book Club- A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle.
-My Tivo... I am all caught up with The Wire and Oprah... :-)

Peace,
WonderWoman