Transition...

Today I choose to remember that I am “here” for a reason…

I often encourage young people to find their inner superhero, and today I choose to remember my own advice. I have been feeling stuck and afraid to move for a while, and I have begun to get unstuck and I am ready to move. I will use this time of transition to enhance my inner superhero. Today, I am reminded of Marianne Williamson's passage:

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

I found my passion and purpose over the last two years through my work with children and adults at varying places on their personal continuum of happiness and super heroism. Lately I have deepened my understanding of some of my triumphs, trials and tribulations as I move on this same continuum. It is from my own experiences that I have been able to relate and support students and adults as they face their fears and strive to be better today than they were yesterday. Sometimes I have felt like a fraud when I am encouraging others to do what I am often afraid to do myself... to be "brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous". I am in another transition on my own continuum and transition is often a scary place for me. Life is a spiral. Sometimes I feel like I am going up the spiral and sometimes I feel like I am going down the spiral.

Today I wrote a farewell letter to my colleagues announcing that I will be leaving the school I have been working at for over a year. I am taking a risk and leaving my current role in search of a role that is better suited for me to be "brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous". I am not sure what my next piece of work will be, but I have been blessed to work with colleagues and leaders that believes in me, and I have an opportunity to find a role that is aligned with my strengths and will continue to help me grow into my purpose.

I have been feeling really ambivalent about leaving my current job, because I feel sad that I am leaving students and colleagues that I care for deeply. I celebrate many successes over the last year or so in this work and I also have felt out of balance personally and professionally for quite sometime now. Circumstances sometimes force you to make a decision and get unstuck. I am shifting my perspective about my current space. I am moving up the spiral and I feel excited. Every day is filled with new possibilities and I will push past my fears. I am blessed to have wonderful friends, family, and colleagues and I will remember they are my source of strength and encouragement as I move forward and continue to embrace the superhero in ME.

Blessed and Encouraged,

WonderWoman