Over the last few months more an more areas of my life seem unclear and unstable. I am feeling as if several pieces of my life have been tossed in the air and I am unsure of how the pieces will fall into place. One of the pieces that really just brought my life into perspective was a recent health scare that I have been facing for the last few weeks. This brought some of my deepest fears to the surface. My fears of:
*not being strong "enough"...
*not being good "enough"...
*not doing the "right" thing...
*not being able to take care of my family, and not being there for my sons when the need me most...
*being alone when I yearn for a life partner through the good and bad times. I am tired of going thru the bad times ALONE. I want someone to hold me and tell me it will be "ok"...
Well, yesterday I was relieved to hear "we didn't see any thing on the images that would lead us to believe that these abnormalities are cancerous". I still have to follow up with a Breast Specialist and deal with some other health issues, but I am so relieved and thankful that I have the opportunity to get my body healthier without having to also battle with the Big C. I am so GRATEFUL!!! I have to get serious about my priorities (see my last post).
- I am grateful for God's Grace and Mercy! I could never give enough THANK YOUs to God for his loving arms. He loves me in spite of my faults and offers Grace and Mercy to pulls me thru.
- I am grateful for God's whisper when fear and uncertainty wake me from my slumber. He reminds me that he holds me in his arms and I WILL get thru the obstacles of life with his love... just trust him. I am realizing that right now God's arms are the ones I need most, and Mr.WonderfulMan will come when I am ready. I will take better care of my mind, body, and spirit because this is the vessel I was given and I have to do better.
- I am grateful to have so many amazing people in my life that inspire me because of who they are and how much they care for me.
- I am grateful for past lessons that showed me that I may fall down, but I can get back up again, so I know I will get back up again this time too!!!
- I am grateful for my love of writing, because these days journaling is often the only places I have been able to "let go" when I feel afraid.
- I am grateful for great music. My Itunes is like a soundtrack of my life, which is why I love to post songs that speak to the moment more eloquently than I can.
- I am grateful for my son D's smile. I am proud of him for making better connections to his gifts and talents. He reminds me that growth doesn't always look pretty and the rainy season is needed in order for amazing flowers to blossom. I luv u D! He inspires me to take my own advice these days...
- I am grateful that I get another day to become better than I was yesterday.
Well I need to get going and start my day. Happy Friday!!!
-WonderWoman
4 comments:
AMEN, Girl! And you know where I work so don't hesitate to get up with me about anything you might need.
*hugs*
Good to see that you're still blogging. I need to step my game up so I can get clear on some things myself.
i'm grateful to have a chance to read this
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